Muammar Chowdhury, Chattogram, Bangladesh
I’m Muammar Chowdhury, a bisexual boy. And it’s my journey towards Islam ☪️.From my early adolescence I noticed that my feelings were different.at first I thought it is normal. But eventually I understood I’m different. From my childhood I was bullied for my feminine nature. That’s why I didn’t had many friends in my early high school. These made me sad.so after noticing my feelings, I started to search about it and found myself as a bisexual. Though I got to know it for sure, it took couple of weeks to confess it to myself. Then suddenly I found why I was bullied. But the main trauma began when I read an article on Iran giving death ☠️ penalty to gays according to sharia and that made me depressed because now I thought my society, my country, my friends, my family and even my God hates me to such an extent that he wants me die for something that I never asked to be. I researched it on net but at that time there was a hype of lgbt 🏳️🌈 movement so Islamic scholars were very furious on lgbt 🏳️🌈 so they were criticizing them very much and made me more and more depressed. This kept me depressed for approximately a long year but I never decided to suicide because there was something in my heart saying it cant be right. I cried in prayer 🤲 and asked why you hate me and he heard my prayers when I went deep in it ,I found that its just a test and God honoured me by choosing me as an eligible examinee. Now I became more spiritual (struggling) and a happy person. No one hates me and I’m abode by the love ❤️ of God. Now I have many friends and fear none but God
What sort of things helped you in your journey and through your struggle?
The things which helped me in this journey are-
1) believe on God
2) islamic scholars who explained it very well namingly Dr Yasir Qadi
3)the indirect support of my family
4)the support of my 2 paternal elder cousins (we are joint family)
What things did not help you in your journey?
The things which didn’t help me are-
1)unwise, exaggerated and unexplanatory speeches of Islamic scholars
2) propaganda
3) misconceptions
4) hate
5) intolerance
6) ignorance
Any additional comments you wish to make?
The only thing I wanna say love ❤️ and rely on God. Always remember God is with you and loves you irrespective to anything and you need none but him