Yusuf Taha – Texas, USA

I have had same-sex attractions for as long as I can remember having any attractions. As a teenager, I learned to keep my feelings to myself as they would not be accepted and had the potential to bring me harm. At the time I was working very hard to maintain a mask and stifling any individuality or personal development. However, when I went to university, I had the freedom to explore who I was in a western, liberal environment. I gave in to my desires and engaged in lots of risky behavior that only provided me with overwhelming shame and guilt. After university, I made the decision to abandon that lifestyle and accept Islam wholeheartedly as my way of life. I became involved in the Muslim community and eventually got married Alhamdulillah. I continue to struggle with the attractions, but I am now able to practice more restraint and avoid acting on them.

What sort of things helped you in your journey and through your struggle?

Educating myself and really owning my Islam. Developing a strong relationship with Allah and learning to depend on Him alone. I also found connecting with other brothers going through the same thing quite therapeutic and encouraging.

What things did not help you in your journey?

Feeling isolated from society, not having any resources to answer my questions.